No, you didn't read that wrong, Pangaeans.
The Legend of Pangaea is on a hiatus for a bit due to some personal issues, all of which I'll explain. Sure, I don't NEED to tell you anything, but as people who have been supporting this site, I feel you deserve to know.
The first issue is I'm seeing a psychologist to see to my mental issues. I suffer from Depression and PTSD, both minor, but I suspect I may be much more broken than that. I have a suspicion I may have some level of sociopath after some self-reflection. I always considered myself introverted and anti-social, but maybe it's because it's not because of what happened to me, but what IS me. I have to know.
The second is that my financial situation is not ideal. I had a job opportunity to take me back to the work force and I tried it out, but...well, it STARTED off good, something happened and it made me rethink a few things, so I didn't take the job. Ultimately for the best. It was in a field that didn't benefit my future, in a city I hated, in a field I never was interested in. Sure it was good money, but it's not worth it if you're that miserable. I only took it to help a friend out in his time of need, but...well, let's just say that friendship is over. Fortunately, I never left my old job and stayed part-time and they welcomed me back with open arms full-time again. But I also spent way too much due to my road trip to Chicago and birthday visit to my now 6 year-old niece, who's like a daughter to me. As such, I need to get my savings back in order. I'd do a Patreon or something, but I don't feel right asking for money when I don't know what to give back in return for a game that could take years to release. I'm open to ideas, however.
Third and this is a big one is that I'm having doubts. I see visitors and I put stuff out on Facebook, Twitter, and here, but I never got anyone to say anything anywhere. I'm horrible at that and I know it since people like pictures, not just words, but I just don't know what to post and I think people are not really interested, but here to pass the time. It's why I've been late this post. I was hoping maybe I'd see a spike or some subtle activity to see if anyone wondered why it was taking so long. No change. Hence, the doubts. I'm seeing the psychologist about this too, of course, but I consider it a separate issue since I want this to grow. Maybe I'm expecting things too soon? After all, it's only been a year and the game is only a fraction completed and ever-evolving. Regardless, I lost my motivation to continue and need time to get it back.
Unlike the Final Fantasy XI writing I had done, I won't scrap The Legend of Pangaea. I sunk too much money and too much of my soul into it. I just need time to re-evaluate myself and my situation. This will still get done and it will still go public. However, because of the above-mentioned troubles, I'm going to stop for now until I get my motivation back.
If anyone does read this, thank you. Maybe you're like me and too introverted to say anything or want to say anything. I want to believe that. Maybe it's my e-mail? I only have the one:
It's not hyperlinked in case something janky happened to the links and I don't know it. Just copy-paste.
I choose to believe people out there care and support what I'm doing. As long as that continues, I'll never give up this game. Thank you to those who do believe in me.
The author and creator of "The Legend of Pangaea"